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Idk
Idk if she read my status about changing or if she’ll even stumble upon my tumblr and see my leaves. I mean no one even follows me. When this silence started, I realized a lot about myself and what I was doing. I realized this stuff before she made her post on tumblr, seeing that just reinforced it all. it surprised me that she knew I was gonna read it. And I doubt she will ever see this. Thats ok though, I’m just posting this for myself to let it be known, I want to fix myself for myself. I don’t like what I’ve become lately and sometimes its hard to see what you have become. I just hope this revelation is not to late. This time has showed me a lot . There is such thing a caring to much. I guess its sorta like with parents smothering their children. I was just too into this relationship and I need to step back every once in a while. Yeah I love her and yeah I care a lot, but I guess it wouldn’t hurt to back off and not spend so much time with her. Do things that I want to do more often. And not worry so much. Like really not worry so much. Life has just got so stressful that I forgot to live, which is important because she has her own life too. Once I get a new bike or fix my old one I’ll definitely be living it up, but for now I’m gonna go where these two feet take me. And right now they’re gonna take me to get breakfast, I can’t believe I went to sleep at 10 thinking it was 12
